Time travel

Couple years ago I went to Fiji. I took Dr. Fred Allen Wolf’s "Do it Yourself Time Travel" book with me to read during my vacationJ Yes, I read quantum physic books on my vacationsJ In any event, even before I read the book it felt like I was travelling across time and space anyway. Given that, I left US while it was winter, I arrived to Fiji to find summer and on my return to US it was spring time. Also passing the International Date Line really shifts your whole system…

This year, I am having a similar experience but this time the experience is spread through the whole year. In the beginning of the year I was just adjusting back to life in the US after being in India for three months, and the frigid cold climate after the tropical weather in India. Towards the end of the spring I went to Spain to experience summer and then returned to the US to experience the spring. I just returned from Turkey and yet again experiencing winter here after the warm summer weathers and soon I will be leaving for Jamaica to meet with summer againJ My time travel this year is not only in the physical but also in the emotional level as well. I was in the mission of purging since the beginning of the year therefore I went through lots of material objects and reflected back at the times that I accumulated them. Also going to Turkey is always an emotional time travel since I reflect back to my behavioral patterns while observing my close family members and understand how I inherited them.

While I was in Turkey, I ended up reading a lot of historical articles about ancient myths. One of which was the Norse Mythology talking about the Tree of Life Yggdrasil (pronounced "IG-druh-sill). Dan McCoy explains in his article that the Yggdrasil is an ash tree and stands evergreen above Urd’s Well… He says that "The Well of Urd corresponds to the past tense. It is the reservoir of completed or ongoing actions that nourish the tree and influence its growth. Yggdrasil, in turn, corresponds to the present tense, that which is being actualized here and now. What of intention and necessity, then? This is the water that permeates the image, flowing up from the well into the tree, dripping from the leaves of the tree as dew, and returning to the well, where it then seeps back up into the tree." I enjoyed reading Dan’s explanation of this concept in the Indian tradition that is called "Karma".

Traveling over Time and Space is a technique I often employ in my coaching sessions with the clients to enable the healing of the deeper emotional wounds that the source of it is not clear to the client. In this technique, client is in a meditative state where I guide them through the time and space to facilitate their observation of the events and behaviors that fed in to the current patterns just like the dews that flow back into the Well of Urd. In this case, client obtains clarity not only about their propensities (see my Propensity blog) but also what necessitates the experiences for them to grow.

Although we are trained culturally that the time is a linear concept; it is through the quantum physic we started to understand that might not be the case. Dr. Deepak Chopra, Dr. Fred Allen Wolf, and others are speaking about possibilities of experiencing quantum leap by traveling back in time and observe where a pattern is introduced to one’s psyche in order to facilitate learning of a specific concept according to soul’s development schedule. And yes, what we can experience in the current life is constrained by our destiny; it is possible to create very different learning circumstances and elevate our transformation to a completely different levels.

It is my offering to you today is an awareness of your "dew drops" by each choice, in each moment. Notice the drop; notice its composition, clarity and content. Notice its offering to the Well of Urd. What are you offering back to the collective psyche? What is your alchemical process of drinking the Well’s water, processing through your Tree of Life before you offer your "dew drop" back? How is the water in the well? How would you like it to be? How are you changing it by your contributions?

May you are able to offer "highest potential" with the each of your "dew drop". May you are able to purify your alchemical process that transforms what you consume from the "Well of Urd". May your offerings be always and all ways nourishing to the Yggdrasil.

Namaste,

Resources:

Norse Mythology for Smart People by Dan McCoy

Do it yourself time travel by Dr. Fred Allen Wolf

Quantum Healing by Dr. Deepak Chopra

Regressions through the Mirrors of Time by Dr. Brian Weiss

Picture Credits: Norse Mythology for Smart People by Dan McCoy

http://www.germanicmythology.com/original/cosmology3.html

Tijen

Responsibility, self-trust, leadership, and back-seat driver

She said I don’t know why but I am resistant to take the ownership. I remember doing that since I was a little girl. And then she asked why that is? She was wondering if that has anything to do with the lack of self-confidence…

I said seems easier to be the back-seat driver. However that comes with lots of frustrations for the one who is trying to direct the direction of the car from the back seat as well as the one who asked to sit at the driver’s seat with no authority… No one can win at this situation. It is OK to suggest a direction every once in a while, and state in the beginning where you wish to go at what speed. However if you sit in the back and offer all your power to the one who you ask to take the lead on, then you need to submit to the direction, the speed and the destination that person will take you to…

I call this a toggle-war syndrome. It almost in a way that the back-seat drivers have no ability to trust that they can get what they want. They also don’t believe that they are capable of giving it to themselves. Therefore they ask someone to provide it for them yet due to lack of trust and wanting to control the situation they suffocate themselves, and the ones who are supposed to provide for them whatever it is they want to get. On the other hand, the fact of the matter is, if the back-seat driver takes a moment and ask themselves would there be any moment in time that I will be pleased in the way I have been lead to, I am guessing the answer would be “no”. Because it really doesn’t matter who is driving them, to where to, in what way, they would be unhappy as the real core issue is not about the destination is about not taking ownership of their life.

So then how one can get off the back-seat and release being the back-seat driver? This requires a lot of courage in some cases, especially when the person has been in this dynamic for most of their life and carrying lessons around managing their power. They often tend to hand their power to someone else to manage, and then sit in frustration and anger. One power-full way to get out of this exhausting and unhealthy dynamic is self-love. When one believes that they are worthy of getting what they want or need, then trust starts to build. You can test this in your system to understand your own patterns. Since I am a yogini and I have tremendous respect to body’s own intelligence, I will teach you a method to check in through your own body. Make an affirmation such as “I believe that I can get what I want”, or “I believe that I am worth of receiving what I want”. Then notice your body’s response. It will share with you if it believes to what you are saying or not. I often get “eeeyyk” kind of an automatic “jerk” reaction when I use an affirmation that doesn’t agree with my existing belief system. Notice where you hold the tension, where are the unbreathable places in your body. Then use affirmations that are softer until you find one that your system finds OK such as “I am willing to believe that I can get what I want” or even softer “I am willing to consider to believe that I can get what I want”…Use this system daily along the side of behavioral change until you come to a place of no resistance and complete trust.

I would also like to share that from my experience with myself and with my clients that the trust issues can take a long time to heal. So you need to be carrying high levels of integrity towards yourself and keep your promises, speak your truth and not hand your power away for this to heal during this time of recovery. This pattern comes from a misuse of power across the time and space…Whether in this life or, if you believe in reincarnation, from another life. In the end, it really doesn’t matter where it has started, you can heal and integrate your soul across time and space. I will also suggest that during this recovery period, you also start taking ownership in your own life, even if it means as simple as to pick the restaurant when you are going out. You can slowly build on your power and get used to managing it appropriately.

Here comes the prayer: May you find courage to look at your own grace; notice, acknowledge and accept how power-full, wonder-full, an amazing you are. May you find the compassion within to free yourself and the people who are sitting at your driver seat from the endless, frustrating toggle-war. May you generate self-love that enables you to take your power from the people you handed to manage it for you.

Namaste,

Tijen

 

Make the buck stop with you…

I said to my dear friend with the tears in my eyes, I read somewhere that I takes seven generations to clear out family karma…I feel like I am chosen to do this for my family and it feels heavy…This was about 4-5 years ago…

At that time, I was hearing my ancestor’s whispering, but not so much feeling ready to do what they want me to do or I had the clarity about it. I can sense this especially from the lineage of women in both side of my family tree…I had very strong powerful women in both side of the blood line. They had stories of unhappy marriages that I knew. I also knew that these powerful women were also very talented. And somehow they gave up their talents in order to raise the family and that seemed to me created some depression in them although none of them acted as if they were depressed. Yet I remember the resentment coming through their loving words as much as they wanted to hide it… There was in some way martyring took place and resentment along the way… They were powerful but never were able to express their power freely, got married and muted the voice of their power. These women had struggled in their time and in their unique way. I was already in my spiritual journey to free myself as a powerful woman but did not realize that my journey would also heal the family wound and free these women at that time…

I always looked back and felt the joy of having some of their gifts handed to me. I did not have all of their gifts but I was lucky enough to have gifts from both sides of the lineage that made me very talented and strong…Yet, like everyone else, I often looked back and felt frustrated about carrying what we call their “challenges” or “shortcomings…Until yesterday…

During my practice yesterday morning, I realized that all that was handed to me were gifts…It was my judgment that was labeling some of them good and some bad…All I got was exactly all I needed. I needed to inherit the power from these magnificent, fiery, talented, world-changing women, in order to break through the challenges, and do what I came here to do…In order to be able to break through the family karma so that the generations to come have no need to work on these though lessons…So we all are free…Today, I feel power-full enough to say I can do it, versus the fearful space I was in 4-5 years ago…Today, I honor all that challenge given to me. Today I feel so privileged to know my ancestors trusted me with the “family jewels”, all of it…And I am going to wear them all with honor and joy…

So today, I wanted to bring this to your awareness…What do you label as “family curse” versus “family gifts”… What is handed down to you through your genetic blueprint? How are you healing yourself and others through your gifts such as musical talents, arts, etc. versus the more challenging ones such as addictions, depression, and certain illnesses? How are you carrying your family jewels? Are you wearing them openly or are they in a dust-covered chest down in the basement that you do everything to hide them from everyone?? Have you considered yourself to be the chosen one by your family to carry the family coat of arm? Will you handed down as it is to the next generation or will you modify it for higher good of everyone in your life time? Yes, you have ability to change the story while you are alive so that the next generation can have a different story…Can you tell to your loved ones now, and on your last breath “I did my best”? What are you willing to do with your unique chance to redeem what was once lost through ignorance, lack of courage, arrogance, or being unconscious?

The opportunity to heal the pride, shame, and painful family legacy is a challenge; and the most important gift that we can give it to our ancestors as well as to the next generations by acting on the unlived gifts of our family legacy.

Today, my prayer to you is to bring these challenges to consciousness with compassion, understanding and love. Today you give your karmic inheritance to a chance and to bring forth all that is longing to be expressed through you, all of it, the gifts and challenges with no judgment but love. Today, find acceptance in this inheritance and make and attempt to heal.

Namaste,

Tijen