Exorcism, the choice between fear and faith…

I never liked watching horror movies when I was a little girl and still don’t like it. I want nothing to do with the negativity, darkness or the dark forces. One of my friends gave me her book Owl Medicine early last year. I ended up reading it to find out her story of dealing with the dark forces. In fact she described herself as a carrier of light and staying away from the darkness. However in her spiritual journey she found out in a hard way that ignoring something does not make it go away. After reading her story, I realized that in order to carry the light properly I needed to understand how the darkness and negativity was working so that I won’t become vulnerable to it just by ignorance. I ordered a book that was detailing information about the dark forces and negativity and how it worked in this planet. Some sections really freaked me out and I had a hard time reading it. But I admit that I am glad that I took the courage to read it. The most important awareness I got from this book was further encouraging my understanding of our relationship to “fear” and our ability to “choose and exercise our free will”.

Years ago some wise woman told me that “you cannot have faith and fear” at the same time. You need to choose one or the other. That stuck with me. And now once again I really understood how true that was. With every choice we make we are choosing either the light or the darkness. Every action we have either based on positivity such as trust, faith, love, compassion, or fear. If you are staying present, and looking down to your actions with awareness you start to see this clearly. For example, let’s take a dynamic between your loved one and the event is about them not doing something you ask them to do. You can choose to get angry by thinking that they don’t care about you, they don’t have respect for you, they ignore you, etc… Or you can choose to say, I have no idea what is going on in their world right now, there is no reason for me to be judgmental about it and let it go. You see, in one way you are contributing to negativity based on social conditioning that says if someone behaves in this way you need to interpret that is such and such or you can come up with your new interpretation that says I have no business trying to interpret someone’s behavior, I will choose peace. It is as simple as this. There are so many social conditioning and rules that are embedded in our psyche and we live our lives based on them. But there is a very important point we forget, that these rules started to be developed with the human existence and most of them are based on flight and flight responses. There are no tribes nearby that are going to attack us or tigers running around trying to eat us. In fact we are the ones destroying everything with these outdated rules. (See my expiring needs blog).

In the end, the light, God, Divine, whatever you call the higher source, does not care about what we chose. That is the whole reason why we have “free will”. But the quality of our life and wellbeing depends on our choices. Furthermore, darkness does care about what we chose as it requires our energy in order to exist. And by being ignorant and not being present, we exercise our free will towards the choices we really would not choose if we take a moment to think it though. After all I don’t believe anyone who is reading my blogs wishes to be feeding the darkness through their life force, their breath and energy and weaken themselves by doing so…

I chose to share this awareness with you today after some pondering as every choice you make counts, little ones more than the big ones…My prayer today is for you to be able to stay present, and aware with each breath, and each choice so you can make them towards the light and your wellbeing rather than feeding something you wish to go away…The meaning of the exorcism is defined as “to free (a person, place, etc.) of evil spirits or malignant influences”. With this warrior-like awareness you clear and clean the fear from your psyche, emotional body, your tissue, your cells, your blood, your soul’s history one by one and that is the true exorcism. By clearing the fears that are running your software in the background and eating your energy alive you find true freedom, peace, harmony and wellbeing…

May you find the courage to choose light by each choice, may you develop strength in your heart to choose peace and harmony. May the light surround you, your wellbeing and your choices to support your journey towards the light.

Namaste,

Tijen

Prana and change

I often say in my mind-body classes that "let the breath breathe you". I also use the term when someone is trying to make an impact on something "put your breath into it". To me these two concepts are very important and it is often we don’t realize or appreciate their importance.

In the Eastern Traditions there is a term used for this intelligent life-source that comes and breathes us. In Sanskrit it is called "Prana". Somehow in the Western cultures we feel entitled to our breath…We don’t put emphasis on it until it is our last one that is gifted to us, then I believe that there is an awareness of that life-source or consciousness, which we are part of.

The second thing I would like to bring awareness is the breath-ability of your body (See my blog Breathalyzer and Enlightenment). It is often thought that the enlightenment is a state of the mind. My perspective and reality as a yogini is that it is the state of the whole body-mind system. More you enable "prana" to breathe you, more you embody the light, the cosmic intelligence, the divine, whatever you call it in your system.

Recently, most of my close friends are speaking to about how they struggle to make changes in their life to create anew. I am in the middle of mine as well. Change is not always an easy one, especially when one is trying to shift the whole ground underneath, create an earthquake so the change can occur from the roots up. I recently speak about how to strategize the change on my Genco Coaching blog (http://wp.me/p576tM-8). Here, I am going to speak about co-creating or enabling the change trough Prana since we are not only our mind, we have more complex system that includes physical body along with subtle bodies that enables the energetic changes through our emotions, beliefs, etc., both is needed.

So the one major thing to consider is your readiness for the change. It is often we feel frustrated that the change is not happening, yet on the other hand we have so many control mechanism that we don’t trust Prana to come and do its job. We block the energy and hold the breath. When you wish to make a change, ask yourself, if the change is at your door, (you have no idea what it is going to do but for sure it will create the new) will you open the door, will you allow it? Let me ask in the coaching language…How ready are you to embrace the change? (I often ask the % of readiness score to my clients). Once you assess that, then check in to see which part of your body is embracing the Prana and which parts are tight, not enabling breath to come through you. When you get to this level of awareness then you can invite those parts to dinner, walk, tea, whatever floats your boat to see what makes them scare of Prana! What fear system is running through you that is blocking the riverbeds of the Pranic force. Before you clear those out, you won’t get the change in the level you wish to have.

Let me give you a picture so you can see clearly the behavior. You invited a guest to your home, you are so anxious and longing to see. When they arrive, you are acting as if you don’t hear the door as you feel your home is not good enough, not ready, or some unnecessary thought like that. Or you peek out the door by crack opening and hoping that they didn’t see you while you impatiently sitting behind the door imagining how wonderful to spend time with them…Do you see the absurdity in the behavior? But we all do it. In fact, if you open the door, you know the guest will help you in every way and your guest is so powerful that they can even take the door down if they wanted to!!!

I will now leave you with that metaphor, along with my prayers…May the strength in your heart in all ways and always support you for overcoming debilitating, disabling beliefs. May you feel comfortable just following the clues and being OK with not knowing the whole picture of the change until you embody the whole of it. May you find bliss in changing and not knowing…

 

Further support: In the Yoga tradition, mantras often used as a sound therapy to attune and/or reenergize the specific area in the body. Ganesha mantra can be used for this purpose as you recognize breath-disabled areas. “om gan ganapataye namaha”…If you choose not to investigate what is the reason for the blockage rather you wish it to be opened up to Pranic force, use the mantra…

Namaste,

Picture credit: Melanie Weidner http://www.listenforJoy.com
Tijen

Compassion, Fiery Dragon, and Thorn

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Once upon a time there was a fiery dragon with a thorn on his heart. The thorn was hurting so much that he wouldn’t let anyone near him. When anyone attempted to come nearby, the dragon will breathe out fire and the people would be afraid to come near him and think that the dragon was a nasty being. The dragon felt lonely, not understood, not cared for or loved, continue to pity himself with his wound. At the end, the dragon died lonely and everyone thought that he was a nasty being and he died lonely because of that. No one will ever know that he had a thorn that was hurting him so much…

We all have this story. We all have the thorn and the fire breath. We all have a hurting dragon within. So how do you let people come and help you to get the thorn out? Or how do you as a person, who is trying to come closer, help the fiery dragon with the thorn? Each act requires a deep compassion and courage in order to pass the fear bridge with the desire to understand the each other’s story. From the perspective of the one who is trying to come close, if you have no idea about the thorn, all you see as a fiery dragon that is hurtful….If you as a dragon, don’t take a moment to connect with the pain with the thorn, all you express is your pain in the form of burning and hurtful fire. On this state of disconnectedness you cannot explain the others of your hurt, rather continue to hurt them with your burning fire and keep them at a distance.

This is a story being told and experienced for centuries. We all have the thorn and the persons we keep at a distance with our burning fire. Isn’t it time to get down and dirty with these thorns so that we can put our fire for a good use and not burn anyone else? Isn’t that time to not to be judgmental of each other when we have no idea about what thorns the dragons are carrying? How do we get pass this huge wound that is connecting us through our hurts but not through our love?

I did Tibetan Chud practice (Chud practice is used in Tibet to heal emotional wounds) this afternoon and dedicated to all that is hurting and feeling hurt by others. What I saw was a big black thorn that was hollow inside and that hole was filled with sorrow. That sorrow was the layer underneath of the anger that was sitting on the hot and heated prickly thorns. What it needed to heal was pure love. So I offered pure love as it was intended by the divine. The color of that love was vibrant fuchsia pink. The wound I observed needed apricot paste kind of nectar to heal…

After the session, I looked up the ancient, medicinal uses of apricot. Interestingly enough I found that the apricots were used for treatment of cancer and skin wounds…Both are very telling in this story. I don’t know what your wound needs to heal, nor the persons you are in tug of war war with in similar scenarios of seeking love…What I am offering here is an example and awareness for your ability to tame and heal your dragon…

May you find courage to be still when the thorn is hurting before you breathe the fire out to burn others and yourself as a result of your hurt…May you are able to connect to divine fuchsia love that fulfils the hollow space inside your thorn. May you are able to use the fire breath of your dragon in the forms of creativity through healing your thorn instead of burning others with your pain. May you are able to say goodbye to your thorn, heal your wounds and wounds of others…

Namaste,

Picture credit: http://stuffpoint.com/dragons/image/131408/fiery-dragon-bathe-picture/

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fuchsia#mediaviewer/File:Fuchsia_2008.jpg

http://www.tasteofbeirut.com/2013/12/dried-fruit-salad-khoshaf-2/

Tijen

Breathalyzer and Enlightenment

Breathalyzer is a term that I used for analyzing the breath to understand consumption of substance intake. The substance that is being checked during this process is often alcohol or drug that is altering the breath’s ability to move through the body and do its function as divine intended. My suggested usage, as a coach and a yogini is to analyze the influence that is created on the breath by the subconscious thoughts and fear, and understand the impact on the body.

I have spoken about this before that the cultural and social conditioning, through thought patterns we subscribed to, and fear has major influence in our body’s ability to breathe. As a yogini I observe this in my body daily. The minute I come across an awareness of fear directed flow in my body, I can see that the heart closes, and certain areas in the body responds in the same way of shutting down and not allowing the breath to go through. The concept of enlightenment is often understood as the light comes outside in, and the new age behavior for capturing this light from outside is doing some physical yoga activities, using candles, reading bunch of spiritual content, etc. I am all for that, except the fact that the light that is sought is nowhere else other than one’s very own body. It is waiting for us to enable through our breath by releasing ourselves from the constricting thoughts, constipating emotions and disabling fears. So the way I use the word of enlightenment is in-lightenment…

Today, I am writing to create awareness on these two major concepts. One of them is to have you to understand your journey and your seeking of light. Where do you look for light? What do you think is going to in-power you so that you can in-lighten? And the second one is; which areas in your body still breath-disabled? Those areas are your guide, as the Tibetan wisdom names it, your demons to help you uncover the light.

Most of my students like me to provide example so that they understand and learn the concept better. So here is an example. I am working through fears around abundance and scarcity. As soon as I get a trigger- if you are not as present in the moment, you may get lost in the anger, fear and get near sided about the story is taking place. Our real-life experiences are scenarios that set for us to grow from, not to crate drama for usJ -I then stay present and focused to understand where I am blocking the flow of breath. Then I start to encourage the breath to flow through there. –This requires gentleness and compassion.- During this process, you will get some memories of the past activated and you will hear the experience replaying in the back of your mind, or see the images, etc. That is where the major injury in the psyche occurred. That is your opportunity to visit that moment, forgive, heal, release and come back. I call this process, travelling across time and space. If the trauma is strong, you might need a coach to guide you through it. And you need to be very patient with yourself and your body as it might take months before breath to go through the place of physical or emotional injury. (Sometimes, what we experience in our body as a blockage can be a cultural wound or a family legacy that might not even belong to your experiences but you might have been the signed up for the team to resolve that for collective consciousness…)

Here comes the prayer: May you are able to create a breath-map of your body to get intimate with how breath breathes you….May you fall in love with the uncovering process of love within you. May your process of being in-powered and in-lightened be filled with joy, compassion, curiosity, delight and fun. May you in-courage and lead others in their journey to in-lightenment.

Namaste,

Picture credit: http://www.breathalyzer.net/bactrack-select-s80.html?gclid=Cj0KEQjwjZefBRDfsY28oNjbgeABEiQA8kVt3Qk6lNu0GuN_DmjS-0Hjkm1Mn-5RgNZt4Kdg3OK75k8aAukM8P8HAQ

Tijen